I’m infinity, I’m part of the infinite cycle of life and I’m a teacher. A teacher is an … an embodiment of teachings. Teachings flow through me, and I’m just here to deliver those teachings.
And you’re keeping them safe and like sharing them and then they will sprout, so like you’re planting seed. Okay, I’m a gardener with a soul. I’m planting. That’s what being an artist is for me. Planting seeds, seeds of consciousness. Seeds of love, you know. Into the mind of people, into the heart, into the soul, into the bodies of people.
So, how did it happen. So I was studying economics. I did a BA in economics. I mean I wanted to be a doctor. And then I was like, ah-. Okay non, so I’ve always wanted to be a fashion designer. That was like, what I wanted to be, I mean dreamlife. And then, because I was very good at school, I got a bit like brainwashed by the high school I was in. And they were very like enforcing the value that like: “Oh when you’re good at school like, you have to do like even- only like law school, like medicine school, economics”, whatever. Like- and when I was like “I want to do like fashion”, they were like: “That’s a waste of brain”. And that kind of like, I don’t know, I was young, influenceable, I don’t know, like it got to me. So, I was like: “Okay whatever, I do economics”. And then I was just depressed, and it was just horrible. So eventually I moved to Denmark, and I decided, to- to do the fashion thing, you know. So I applied to Saint Martins and got in. And when I was there, like, I was doing this pluri-disciplinary year and you had to choose and I don’t know why, like, I just signed out, like literally. I don’t know what happened. So my whole life I’ve waited to be there to do fashion and then like, I don’t know. So here I am, doing this thing and then, yeah, I guess, I mean, then I did a MA in a- a research MA in experimental cinema.
I was doing a master in experimental cinema, artist moving image, and I was doing research. No practice, I’ve never actually studied art like practice based, but I was doing like my own thing on the side, like I was like shooting on me like super eight. I had my little theater stage in my room in London, like I wanted to be a theater player also at the time.
And so I was doing research on- okay, the title of my thesis was „From cruelty to ecstasy. The scream of resistance in film-performance“. It’s very funny, because now that I think about it, like in that, and it was like, I don’t know, now, six, seven years ago and at that time I’ve never thought of making art, really of being an artist. And I feel it’s as if I wrote the whole like conceptual theoretical, like framework or what I was gonna do, you know, like years before. And I even find a chapter in my- on my computer that was called “Ecstasy. The metaphysical body“.
